celebrated halloween with my Nikon

woke up today and i feel like...

i want to give up my job and pick up cooking. Yes/No?

first shots

My New Love......

new place, new life, new lover....... ppffttt............

This is the main reason i was missing in action lately.

sun, sea, sand and kids.

Went to Cherating with the kids last weekend and it was tiring, but satisfying to handle 13 kids running around the beach and for the first time in my life, i let myself go completely and just have some fun and the weekend away from electronics, emails and facebook. i`d even leave my phone in the resort. but there was no breath-taking moments, its just what everyone else normally does. sit under the tree, dip in the water, beach soccer, ATV-ing and kayaking.

the kids mostly run around the beach and jump into the water once in a while. in order to improve their maths, i`d carry one by one into the water and give them questions where if they cant answer or answer wrongly, i`ll take a long dip into the water. then went beach-walking with the girls to collect some sea shells in the evenings. you know, all this while i know i liked kids but i didnt know i am good with them.

i think all the kids and volunteers shit in their pants when i went topless. the tattoo on the back was still okay but i think the one on my arm that freaked them. maybe that`s why they listened to me.

on the second night, we had barbeque by the beach and campfire accompanied with guitars, sing alongs and alcohol for the adults nonetheless. i loved it, the kids loved it. then i stayed back till dawn to see the sunrise, dazing away thinking and having those "what if.." moments which almost took my breath away when i was swinging on the hammock until i was ambushed by the little rascals and flipped my over from behind, slapping me back to reality where sand went in my mouth, ass and balls; exactly how reality feels like... itchy, uncomfortable and fustrated.

the 'bright' side.

i am a....

ambitious
argumentative
brilliant
broad-minded
businesslike
capable
careful
cautious
charming
cheerful
clear-thinking
clever
competitive
confident
conservative
considerate
consistent
cool
co-operative
determined
easygoing
efficient
emotional
energetic
fair-minded
far-sighted
firm
flexible
forgiving
frank
friendly
generous
gentle
helpful
honest
humorous
imaginative
independent
intellectual
intelligent
kind
light-hearted
likeable
logical
loyal
mature
mild
moderate
modest
motivated
natural
obliging
open-minded
opportunistic
optimistic
organised
original
outgoing
patient
pleasant
polite
practical
progressive
quick
rational
realistic
reflective
relaxed
reliable
resourceful
responsible
self-confident
self-controlled
sensible
sensitive
serious
sharp-witted
sincere
sociable
spontaneous
stable
steady
strong-minded
supportive
thoughtful
tolerant
tough
trustworthy
unassuming
understanding

...kind of person.

just when you think you are vain..

So far, this has been a non productive year and there isn`t much highlights in my life..

On top of my head..i`ve tried;

- eating weird delicacies.

- been to China. nuff said.

- dating?

- to relax like everyone else.

- went all the way to Singapore just to cheer emmy up.

- stay awake for 72 hours straight.

- spending hours to dress up for a nightout.

- been sober.

- quitting smoking.... still trying. (note: tried)

- tutoring for the homeless.

- went for haircut twice a month.

... and i just discovered that i love myself so much i am telling people that i love myself to people that love themselves as much as i love myself too!

Bow chicah bow bow...................... wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhaaa

i have been classified as obsessive-compulsive disorder.

i like to clean stuff. once i start cleaning, i keep going on and on and on...
i plan too much.
sometimes, im undecided, on food, on clothes and on where to go.
i think im a perfectionist.
i like soya bean, especially from the bottle.
i never liked loud places.
i never liked to get drunk.
i never liked to smoke.
i never like fast cars.
i like to read.
i cant read without glasses.
i hate wearing glasses when i read.
i dare not break the law.
im addicted to work.
i like vanilla ice cream.
i got brown eyes.
i hate driving.
i got no sense of fashion on clothes and anything else that requires fashion.
i realised im no mind reader.
i always wondered how does it feel like to be in the limelight.
i prefer rain than a sunny day.
i can no longer perform in soccer.
i hate to go to bed alone.
i hate to wake up alone.
im getting tired living in a suitcase.
i love kids.
i snore.
i sleep on the left side of the bed.
i love to eat.
i got trouble mingle with younger crowd.
i dont talk much.
i think im surrounded by idiots, all the time.
i like to put my hands in front of the air cond when im driving.
i think im hopelessly romantic.
sometimes, i talk to myself. and the fridge. the dog. the car. period.
i look 5 years younger than my age.
i have been in love before.
i think my best friend is sick. mentally. permanently.
i love cakes.
i`ve stopped celebrating my own birthdays.
i click easier with people who drinks guinness.
i hate horror.
i dont go to the movies anymore.
i hate hospitals.
i am allergic to dogs.
i dont swim.
i hate to swim.
i cant swim.
i love cooking.
i worry too much.
i am easily amused. Not.
i actually enjoy housework.
i secretly sort out M&M`s according to colours and eat them accordingly.

good start of the month..

Great! I just lurveeeeeeeeee September!!!

Note: this is wayyyyyy after the rain stop and subsiding!

another what-the-fuck of the day...

need i say more???

what the fuck??

i got spew all over my G Star!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

missing pieces...

today is exactly 4 years since i received a jigsaw puzzle. :)

i started off with " This might sound a bit rude but i got no other intention but to know you. Is it okay with you? I`ll promise i`ll be good. Its justin by the way."

you know, somehow... i remember this day,next month and every month of it. and i appreciate it, heaps.

and you said this before to me, and today i want to let you know the same;

"I`m sorry i cant do great things but ill try to do small things in great ways. You do meant a lot to me and thank you for all that you`ve been to me... Love you lots and lots and lots and lots........"





just so you know, i framed that puzzle up and the frame dropped on me, of all days... today. scary.

Singapore

a very expensive weekend i would say..
not that i got a lot of money to begin with anyway.

there`s 3 main attractions; hot chicks, hot chicks and more hot chicks.

its very rare to see the whole country filled with 'plastics' walking around.

0o0o0o0o0o0oooooooooo.....................

shopping was breath-taking. they make Malaysia look like pussies.

almost everyone is holding a bag on the street. big brands!

Singaporean`s spending power is just like our Malaysian government. Simply spend only..

met up with emmoline the non alcoholic.

she brought me to Zouk. downed me with sour plum vodka. again and again.

and some bak kut teh after that..... that looks something like this;

taste like the pig intestine`s pepper soup. different. cant complain. when you are drunk and hungry.

Signs i need to get out more.. really

Top 5 winners:

number 5: i have both the time, and the inclination, to iron my undies.











number 4: my idea of a great promotion is completing a level on Metal Gear Solid 4.










number 3: talking to the fridge for dinner options.










number 2: i know the name of the pizza boy, and his shift for the month.










and number 1 is....................................................





got really popular with the garbage/recycling collector because of the number of wine bottles and beer cans i hand over every week.

just when i think ive forgotten...

for me, this is as close as proud can get.