just when you think its just an hour difference..

normally, i wouldnt make a big fuss about the day-light saving shit but if you have your loved one away from you, it is something you might wanna be fussy about. and when i say far away, its really far. in my case, its roughly around 10,000 miles apart. 16,898 kilometers or 10,500 miles or 9124 nautical miles...to be precise.

9 hours difference is already making my heart ache, NOW its bloody 11 hours. indirectly, i stole an hour from her. suddenly, my longing thoughts now seems to feel longer..

just when you think im speechless..

everyday.. everyday, there`s ups and downs. some things you like to do, some you dont. some you like to hear, and some you dont. but im the kind who rather knows than not to. and as ugly as this may sound, im glad to know; not delighted nor happy; just plain glad.

i`ll learn to live with it coz what i know today... cant hurt me tomorrow; or anywhere close to that, ever. there`s some things i just cant say out loud directly to you. thank god for blogs.

















....................and just so you know, you`re worth more than that.

just when you think money is everything..

today was more like a gossip day. what happened, what never happen, what should happen also got!. people die every single day, but rich people dont die everyday. the headline today.. malaysia`s 3rd richest cunt and also one of aussie`s richest mate died. everyone talk about it as if its the end of the world. i got long long distance calls just to gossip what happened 4000 miles away from me. personally, i dont really care but i just wanna get into the "group" talk, in other word; gossip.

there`s a lot of things flash through me when i think bout death, i only i can type as fast as my mind. here`s a couple that i managed to capture..

- should have bought that cute lady across the table the other night..
- fug, i`d die for another puff of ciggie..
- hmm.....beer........
- darn, forgot to upload pictures on facebook..
- where`s my handphone?
- chubbyface, i love you still..
- pay car installment
- sze chuan......

since life is so short, im going to open up my feelings to people i love..

deep inside, im afraid. im afraid of losing everything im gaining now. i dont want to lose any bit of it. i miss melbourne already. i miss chillislut; and her cookings and every single moment of it. (i didnt say anything doesnt mean i dont care)

i miss my chubbyface, any way possible. left, right, centre, top, bottom, front, back. again and again. no matter how much you love me..i love you more. ive got a picture of you in my mind, so even if ive gone to heaven, ill make sure ill fall in love with the same person.

until my life is through, i want to thank you for everything. if i was given another chance, i wouldnt change a bit.